Faith or Fear?

Do you walk by faith or by fear?

Does your faith offend people. Of course it does!
Jesus told us that the world will hate us. Because we are not of this world!
Jesus offended people.... why does faith in God offend people?
Because -
because they have sin.
Because they don't want to repent- because they have pride. Because they have never really put thieir faith and trust in God. Maybe they don't really know Him?
Some people honor other people's pride more than they honor the Truth.
Hopefully they will see the Truth, and change for the Good!
"for we can do nothing against the truth, only for it."
and
"Whatever is not of faith is sin".
and
"faith works by love..."
"For if I have faith that can move mountains, but have not love I am nothing. "
I Love!
I LOVE love- I love the LORD. I Love His commandments, and I love His People!

Be Blessed!
~I AM!

From A New Thing Ministries

Pearls from A New Thing Ministries December 28, 2009

Here are two prophecies that I wanted to share with you today - I believe they will speak encouragement to many of you.


THE TRUMPET by Bill Burns --
Dec. 28, 2009:
I would prophecy to you in the name of Jesus Christ that He is for you and not against you. He knows what you have gone through, and He knows where He is about to take you. He wants you to know today that out of the bad will come the good. And, out of that which is weak will come the strength. Out of the trouble that has come into your life God Himself will make a judgment in the heavenlies and overturn Satan's ruling. The glory of His majesty will be found as a canopy over you. The Lord says to you today, do not be disheartened, do not be discouraged, My children. Only believe, rise up in faith; rise up to your kingdom position; rise up to a new level of faith. Rise up, I say, and know that I am for you. I am leading you and guiding you into the fullness of your destiny, and I will be with you on this journey until the very end of the age. Your destiny has already been sealed; it has already been written and it shall come to pass if you will only believe. Abide in Me, walk with Me, stay with Me through the storms of life, and the greatness of the kingdom shall be your gift. Out of that kingdom shall flow all that you need, all that you require, all that you desire, says the Lord of Hosts.

By Debra Lowe
December 28, 2009
The Spirit of the Lord says; Do not fret over the transitions and changes that I have allowed in your life. Most of the things that have been removed; whether people, familiar situations or circumstances, would have obstructed you from reaching the ultimate goal or position that I Am bringing you to. Some familiarities would have been an obstacle, while others would have been a deterrent to keep you from running unhindered. Others would have caused you to be snared by the enemy of your soul and stopped completely. Let them go! These obstructions in your life have hindered you from the clarity of great revelation. These revelations are necessary in order for these times of transition. These changes have all been about bringing My people up to a higher level, changing how you see and what you see as being genuine and real. Now you must release the load of weights that have caused your run to become sluggish and tiresome to you. Your flight will be glorious, as you and I, shake from you all that would detain you from reaching your proper place and position in Me. I have already spoken to you that the way would be narrow and not many will choose that way. The way is made so that your eyes should only look forward and stay focused on Me and all that is vital to the Kingdom and its advancement. This narrow, constricted passageway will lead you to the wide open spaces of living in the realms of My Spirit. My Holy Spirit has been directing your course, you may have struggled on this course, yet you did not fight against Holy Spirit. Because you chose to yield to Holy Spirit, you will reach your destination with more power, more glory, more anointing, more wisdom and more understanding of Me and My ways. You have now entered into a new position and place of authority. because of your endurance during times of transition. New keys are now placed in your hands for the opening of doors that you thought was locked to you. You will enter boldly now without fear or shame. You will walk into your promised territory, holding your head high, for you have kept the faith and stayed true to Me and My Word. Your focus remained on Me and the Kingdom, even through the darkest times of change. For your faithfulness you will abound with blessings and rewards. You were not lead astray by the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, or the pride of life. These three have slain many strong men of faith, yet, your love for Me remained strong. I Am well pleased with you, My children. Keep moving on the path of holiness and your destination will always be glorious! Stay focused and My light will forever brighten your steps into the right position of holiness.

REVIVAL

If you live in or near Deland/ DeLeon Springs area and would like to come and worship the LORD this New Year we are having our 12th Annual Winter Camp Meeting at:

Calvary Full Gospel Church 

5455 North HWY 17, DeLeon Springs

(just off on the right when you get through the town DeLeon Springs)

386-985-6501 for questions or directions

There will be preachers from Texas, Alabama, Georgia, Florida~ It's always an Anointed and Blessed time in the LORD. 

Hope you come and join us!

Services are Tuesday and Wednesday 6:30-9:00pm, food afterwards

Thursday 6:30 we will be bringing in the New Year with the LORD!

food will be served!

Come worship the Lord this New Year, You will be Blessed!

Love~

Wishing Everyone a Very Merry Christmas and I want to remind all of us that the reason for the season is because the LORD GOD LOVES US ALL!!!!
Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday JESUS!


Love the LORD ye His saints !!!

Sex, Please!

I have a confession...
I can't wait 'til the day that I'm married and can say to my husband, "Honey, let's have sex!"

I mean, that's what husbands are for, right?
Not that I walk around in lust or carnally minded all the time, but it is something that God created for us people to have and enjoy and reap from-right?
Think about it.... all humans are created with sexual capacaties.
Why is that???
It is something we are born with--- like--- human nature. Just like, eating, or drinking, or pooping ....
:)

BUT - I KNOW that there is a time and a place for everything.
When you have to go to the bathroom, you don't just drop your pants and poop on the floor in Wal-Mart. When you feel the urge to go you don't poop your pants in the car, do you??
(I really really hope not!!!)
And when your hungry, you don't just pick leaves off trees and eat them, or make a salad out of grass from your yard... and you can't eat your dishes and be satisfied.
SO....
I think sex and food and all the wonderful parts of human nature were and are created for God's glory and our GOOD.

the Bible says when God created man (AND WOMAN) that they were "GOOD".
The Word of God is something that does not change.
I really don't hink God created us as sexual beings to punish us or restrain us in some weird controlling way. I truly believe in moderation and temperance, but it is always something that we humans have to live with.
It's a spiritual war, remember?
But thank GOODNESS we are on the WINNING Team. WE have already WON the battle... we just have to walk in our victory!

I also think that men who use thier wives as scapegoats or think that women are less than men maybe don't think very highly, or let me say, good, of themselves. God created man and woman to be one. There is order, but one cannot be one without the other.
I believe in mutual respect, and mutual love.
And I believe husbands and wives should enjoy what God created them for.
:)
~Your's Truly

-NV-

I have been thinking about envy for a little while.
Does it ever seem like when you reach a place in your life where you are happy or blessed and someone you know comes along and "seems" happy for you, but you can tell deep down inside that thier jealous, or hurting or feel like they wish they had what you have?
That is called envy.
I have dealt witht this before- when something happens in (my) life and people who I feel like I can trust turn around and (I think) are envious deep down. And where does it come from?
I believe it comes from a few reasons:
I think first of all some people don't realize what they have. They are always looking at what other people have, making comparisons, trying to make what they have seem better or worse than what someone else has because they are afraid of dealing with other people's possible jealousy.
Then I think people forget to appreciate what they have. Maybe they are spoiled and get everything they want. Or maybe they never got what they want and felt deprived- like they never had what others had.
But I think we as people should be ultimatley only need Jesus and the love of God to be fulfilled, full, whole.
THEN, the last thing, which I got from the LORD last night while I was praying about it, is, envy, NV.
N= No
V=Victory

NV = No Victory

People get envious when they see others walking in victory.
I don't want to digress into some long letter about why, but if they people who are envios really want to be happy and have a fulfilling life, then they (and sometimes WE) - need to turn away from the public eye and look at ourselves in the mirror and see what kinds of changes we can make to have a better life, and turn to God and ask Him to help us- let me tell you, without Him, we can do nothing!!! (Yet He loves us so much and it is His desire to lift us, help us, cleanse us, lead us through to victoryand glory!)

Living a life of Victory isn't something that just happens
It is Work. It is a PROCESS.
It takes T-I-M-E.
It takes godly virtues that we have to practice, like faith, patience, love, trust, truth; So on and so forth.
It also takes a willing heart. An obedient heart. A faithful heart.

Sometimes you have to be willing to be broken. You might have to be willing to lose. You might have to be willing to go where you've never gone before.
But God always mends what he breaks. He will make you victorious through His Son, and through the blood He shed on the cross for us. Jesus said that the enemy comes to teal kill and destroy- but that He (Jesus) cames that we might have life and have it more ABUNDANTLY.
He will be with you on the journey that He wants to take you on~ and it will be better than what you have ever hoped or believed for!
What an AWESOME GOD, we have! Praise Him and Give Him aLL the GLORY! He is worthy!
~

Psalm 101

1 I will sing of your love and justice; to you, O LORD, I will sing praise.
2 I will be careful to lead a blameless life— when will you come to me? I will walk in my house with blameless heart.
3 I will set before my eyes no vile thing. The deeds of faithless men I hate; they will not cling to me.
4 Men of perverse heart shall be far from me; I will have nothing to do with evil.
5 Whoever slanders his neighbor in secret, him will I put to silence; whoever has haughty eyes and a proud heart, him will I not endure.
6 My eyes will be on the faithful in the land, that they may dwell with me; he whose walk is blameless will minister to me.
7 No one who practices deceit will dwell in my house; no one who speaks falsely will stand in my presence.
8 Every morning I will put to silence all the wicked in the land; I will cut off every evildoer from the city of the LORD.

Passionate This Love

~Passionate …
this Love I’ve found – The Desire that turned my world around-
The blood sweat and tears – of fighting all these years –
Has been the cost of my redemption-

But the Price He paid- in His Passionate Way-
Has given me a life Redeemed- with a Hope and a Future – and a New Song to Sing~
So, don’t hold back – Don’t cut me any slack-
I want to be Pure- Passionate and Sure-
And I’m not ashamed –Because I Know His Name-
It’s the Only one I Call On- Because He’s the Only One I can Fall On.
So I pray, and empty my heart of these distractions – And I ask the Lord, to Fill me with His Passion
-
For Life, in Love, in Truth-
-From henceforth and Forever-
To Serve Him, and follow through-
Make connections in the Ressurection-
Love one another- Be good to your brother-
Do to them what you want done to you-
They are your reflections, Living Examples
And Christ Connections
-Righteously-
Be Right to me
Graciously
You smile at me
And LORD I know you look at me
~This heart you see—and ~you set me free~


To You

Devotion and a PrayerPoem

“It is the calling of great men, not so much to preach new truths, as to rescue from oblivion old truths it is our wisdom to remember and our weakness to forget”
- Siang Smith

Proverbs 29:25
The fear of man brings a snare; but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.

Proverbs 18:24
A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.
(Jesus is my BEST FRIEND!)
Psalm 34:14
Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace and pursue it.

Jesus Christ is the Prince of Peace
Isaiah 9:6

Isaiah 61
Jesus came so I would hear the Goodnews!
He has comforted and healed my broken heart!He has set me free from captivity- He has loosened me and let me out of prison!He has told me everything will be alright and that God sees everything, and that He Himself is LORD of ALL!
He has made my feet to dance and my lips love to rejoice in Him!
He has strengthened me in His Truth-
He is building me, raising me up and repairing my life, my self, my soul –
For His Glory and my Good!
~~~~~~~~~~
I do not have to suffer to be close to the LORD.
God wants good for me-
Even if people don’t understand that – I will continue to Believe Him!
James 3:18
And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.

“baby leave it all behind”
Dan haseltine, jars of clay

“If you weather love and lose your innocence, just remember- lesson one.”
(BOYS-‘lesson one-‘Jars of Clay)

When will you be happy?
When will you you have peace?
Where does your peace come from?
Are you thankful?
Are you happy?

“A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for” anonymous.

~

Peace and hope
Can you step outside yourself –
And look at yourself?
Do you see what you need?
Can you see what I see?
Do you watch me fall? Can you hear my call?
I’m falling – my heart’s falling inside –
As I wipe my own eyes-
This place I’ve longed to see –
I put my faith with my patience – in love –
Like making a new color to see –
Or writing a new song to sing –
-trust isn’t always about the other person-
Relationships are not always only about me – or who “I” love
There is a divine purpose behind it all –
There is a reason- that is His Way.
Pray .
God will reveal Himself to those who pray.
And ask for Him.
Amen.

'Xcuse me while I vent...

I got pulled over about three weeks ago for having a headlight out, but the officer also mentioned that when he dove by me I was not wearing my seat belt.
It was late, and I was in a neighborhood and hadn't yet gotten on or even near the main road yet. And when I passed the police car I did put on my seat belt, like, right then.

But about a block down the road I saw him turn around and he was right behind me and he turned on his lights and pulled me over.
I pulled into a gas station and he came up to my window with flashlight and everything.
I was also getting really sick, I had almost lost my voice (I actually went to the dr. two days later and had to get a powerful shot to kick the sickness, whatever it was).
And anyways, the police man was like, interrogating me.
I told him I felt like he was interrogating me, he was literally making me upset.
I told him in my defence of not having my seatbelt on that I was still in the neighborhood, and that I always wear my seatbelt, and that if and when I might ever not have one on and I do see a cop, I put it on right then and there. (these things are the TRUTH!)
He let me go for the headlight but gave me a $101 ticket for no seat belt-
And he was very... abrasive. I told him that there are criminals he should be trying to find, instead he was interrogating me for not wearing my seatbelt!

It made me think awhile after, actually when I had met Mario Mopar I talked to him about it or maybe thought about it and I thought this:
I always thought "being corrupt" meant like, if a cop who swears to be a good citizen and be a good patrol like, if a cop were to keep the drugs he confiscates or if he speeds or stuff like that, that that would be corrupt.
But now I think its corrupt for what I have seen.
Cops interrogating the (not innocent, maybe less innocent?) than the real reason a community needs police.
Ok, so theres drug dealers, drug addicts, murderers, theives out there. All these crimes are related. Yet, for some reason police seem to let them slide by, and instead ask a million questions to some girl who just wanted to go home.

Maybe I am still mad that I have to pay a ticket when I always do wear my seatbelt.
But I also think maybe people need to get real.
Deal with the things that need to be dealt with.
Ya think???

Repentance.Salvation.Restoration

Psalm 51
1Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
2Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
3For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
4Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
5Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
6Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
9Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
10Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
11Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
14Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
15O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.
16For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
17The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
18Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.
19Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.


The LORD recently let me walk through something that really really humbled me. He does that sometimes, I think, so that I don't forget that we are all human, and that we are all His.
Sometimes I was judging people. Sometimes I was feeling high and mighty. But He is Faithful in so many ways.
He is so intimate. And He is so Wise. He is also the Most Loving One I have ever experienced in my Life.
O, How I love You, LORD! You are more than a Father to me; You are my Friend, my Saviour, my Trusted Companion, My Confidant, My Teacher.
I love You, Lord. ~

Thoughts on Thoughts

I just read my post... and I also just read postsecret. (One of the blogs I follow- I recommend checking it out, just for thought) I really get inspired when people get free, even if its just by sending in postcards of "secrets" that they keep.

It made me also think... who are we hiding from? And why do we hide?

We hide from each other- because we judge each other- we condemn each other. We criticize each other and we hurt each other.

But I don't wanna hide anymore- and I don't wanna judge or condemn or criticize or hurt people anymore!

I'm over trying to be perfect for people- we are not here to please each other anyway!

We are here to please God!

And I am not your judge anyway- and your not mine!

God is the judge- Jesus said the Father judges no one- but has left all judgement to the Son- but ya know what else he said from His very lips was "judge no one-lest ye be judged, condemn no one, or you will be condemned- for how you judge you will be judged..."

You know, if we could just get real with ourselves and not be afraid of what other people think... I think we'd be much better off, maybe even happy !

Some people live thier lives in so much fear of what others think it stops them from living thier lives!!! Theyre afraid of others judgments!

How would u feel if you found out you were making someone feel like they were too afraid to do something or be what they want to be because they didnt want you to judge them!!??

Proverbs 29:25

Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD will be kept safe.

Some people would rather make other people happy and get "praise from men" rather than take a stand and make God happy and forget what men think.

You know what? At the end, the only one that's gonna be there with you is God. The Lord. Those people that praise you and butter you up and flatter you and make you feel like something special are not gonna be there for you. Nope. I think the "Enemy" sends people just like that into our lives to puff us up- and we get blinded from the truth by our own ego- or by impressing other people and thinking we're something were not!

It's one of the oldest tricks satan has used.

My pastor often says there's nothing good in us. I think there is good in us, but that it comes from God.

I tend to think a lot differently that most preachers I hear - but thats ok, I understand that maybe they are on another level than me. I do not lift myself up- we all have our place. No body is perfect in and of ourselves! That is for sure!

But we have the Lord.

The other thing I want to remind people is that we are going to mess up. We can try to pretend like we're perfect, or like everytime we sin it's ok because the blood of Jesus covers us- and it does- if we repent. But we will not walk through this life sinless. No one is sinless except Jesus. He is our perfect example. If we were sinless, we would not have needed Jesus. I also get the feeling sometimes that people think once saved always saved. I think yes,once saved always saved - but how saved do you want to be? How much life do you want to live? I don't think we should be messing up all the time and asking for Jesus when we are capable of being good. We need to desire righteousness- the Word says the heart of man is desperatly wicked- so why don't you pray for a clean heart?

God can make you clean.

I am just here to tell you that.

Not teaching you anything.

Just giving you a message.

God is more than an idea.

Love is more than a feeling.

Life is more than what we see.

OR think.

I said once, the only limits you have are the ones you place on yourself.

People are capable of AMAZING things!

Read Bear Grilz's testimony. (From man vs. wild)

And we are ALL created in God's image.

I believe we are all an expression of the Creator- and do you ever think - we are here at the same time. I'm not here sitting with william shakespear, and I don't live in Germany. No. I'm right here- right now.

And so are you.

God.

My soul is so moved right now...... I wish people would realize.... what we hav been given. I wish people would just give in and love- and trust and believe in love.

4Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.
5It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].
6It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.
7Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].
8Love never fails

People say they are Christians.

What did Christ ask us to do?

What did He say makes us His friend?

To keep His commandments. To love one another.

Is His Word in you? Are you in Him?

I am.

I pray for you to be in Him - and His Word be in you. And in us- Forevermore.

Yes, LORD.

Happy Sunday!

Hi everybody! How are y'all? Good I hope :)
I went to church this morning, and it was very good. My great pastor preached on 1 Corinthians 15:51-58. But one part (that popped out at him) also pops out to me. Verses 55 & 56:
O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.

I read this - yet I think on Jesus. If we live according to His Way- (He is THE WAY) - then the law is love.
See, my pastor preached on death. And my pastor is an awesome preacher, I love him to pieces. But I was about ready to preach today myself!
My pastor saidwhenhe was preaching- do we have power to resist sin? Can we resisit sin in our flesh- on the earth.
He looked at me.
I spoke and said-we can if we have the Anointing.
He asked me if I had the anointing.
I said yes.
He then asked me if I had ever sinned under the anointing-
I didn't speak because I know my pastor well enough to know that he always goes back to that we all need a Saviour. (trust me, I know this about the man! I'm pretty sure that is where he was going!)
But during the service I kept thinking as he was preaching...
about covetness, about envy (never being satisfied with our blessings or maybe not even recognizing how blessed we are!) and lust and adultery.
And all I kept thinking was how if people were grateful for the blessings they have.... they wouldn't want ... and if people were not afraid or jealous or faithful, they wouldn't be envious. And if men and women would love thier husbands and wives and see the ministry in thier marriages, and realize that God gave them to them for them (can ya catch that?) then they would always love and be loved and thier marriages would be so fulfilling they wouldn't lust or commit adultery ......
it just makes sense to me.
People always preaching but are they praying?
We want a difference but can we make a difference?
We were raised to be self- gratifying. W are raised self- centered by our society but that isn't a good way to be.
At least I don't think so.
I am grateful for what I have been given, and I'm not saying my pastor or anybody I know is anyof these ways, but I am just like everybody and I know that we all have our own walk with the Lord and we all have growing to do.
It doesn't matter how old you are or how much you've lived or how long you go to church.
I heard Joyce Meyer the other night on tv say how many years she and her husband went to church in anger and would put on a happy face as soon as they got on the premisis to make it seem like everything was a-ok, but in the truth they were always fighting at home.
I talked to my grandpa today and he and my grandma have been going to church for the past year, and he told me how he was raised in a church where he didn't really get taught the Word or God and how nobody ever taught him how to read the Word and understand it but that now he goes to a church where the pastor breaks down the meaning and teaches it to him so he can recieve it.
So, it just goes to show you that it doesn't matter how old you are or how long you go to church or what position you are in church we all have growing to do and we all truly need the Lord, and each other.
I love you all so very veyr much, and from the least to the greatest to the known and the unknown I hope with all my heart that through my writing I can inspire and encourage and comfort someone- even if it's just one!
Because I know sometimes it's hard to talk to people about what goes on inside us, sometimes we don't even understand- but we have to learn to trust- to trust the Lord and His love for us- He truly does love us. And we have to somehow learn to trust ourselves- like we have to learn to respect ourselves, and we have to learn to respect others. It's all part of life....
this gift we have been given by God!
What a gift it is!
I praise Him for it!
<3LOVE<3

Overcome and Find the Way!

I have been thinking about being an overcomer. I have been thinking about what it means to have overcome some things in my life. And how I have felt about it (at the time of victory), how I feel about it when I talk to others, and how I feel about overcoming obstacles in my life - like, in the Big Picture.
I think some people overcome a thing and stop right there. I think they think it's enough to have overcome something, or that maybe it was just like a problem that needed to be solved. Like quitting smoking- or quitting drugs - or overcoming being overweight. I think we, in our struggles, become blinded by the real purpose of why we need to overcome the obstacle (whether its addiction, sin, or self)- and when we overcome, we think it's over, and we stop right there.
But I want to let you know today that the end of one thing is just the beginning of another!
Like they say, "when God closes one door, He opens another!
There was and is a reason "why" we need to overcome certain "obstacles" in our lives. Not just to be sober or thin, or clear-minded, or clean.

The real reason we overcome is because God has a Purpose and Plan for your life.
He cannot take you where He wants you in the way you're in. So He has to wait on you to clean up your act. If that means get clean from drugs or alchohol, or losing 150 pounds, or getting an education, or what. You fill inthe blank.

See, it doesn't stop at the point when you give up the addiction and gain the victory over it in your life - no, that is only the beginning. That is when God can show you that He has a better life for you. That He has a specific plan for your life, that He thought of before you were even formed in your mother's womb!
Sometimes we get so wrapped up in sin or addictions or cares of this life or our own selfishness and neediness that we almost completely forget that GOD created each and everyone of us with a specific plan and purpose for HIS unique design!
We need to realize that overcoming drugs or alchohol or getting out of a bad relationship is not the end in and of itself- it is the beginning of your journey~ it is a step in the right direction, it is ride you've been waiting for, my friends!

~ Don't get all puffed up when you think you have accomplished a big thing by getting off drugs or staying sexually pure or saving your money or losing the weight - yes, getting free from all that is GREAT! Let me not take your joy by anymeans - but if we try to make ourselves seem big by what we used to do or used to "be" - that is "glorying in our shame". We shall not glory in our shame. There are probably other people who have done worse things and overcome them or people who never even thought about doing the stuf some of us have done who are successful in thier lives and just thankful for not even having been through the horrors of drugs or abuse or sexual impurities - so let's not be proud in who we think we are or were. That is not wise.

We should not even want to be associated with what we used to do or be or how we used to think - I mean, we're trying to stay as far away from being those ways as possible, right???

So, then, we need to leave those things which are behind us IN THE PAST and press on towards the HIGH CALLING of our LORD JESUS CHRIST!

The Prize is INCOMPARABLE to what we can think dream or imagine! The Bible says so!!!
So we should be ever so glad to be free from our sin, we should stand firm on our deliverance, our "overcoming" obstacles - sin, addiction, selfishness- and then we should SEEK GOD with all of our hearts. And have Him help us find our Way!
Because there's a reason we have overcome!
Let's find our purposes in Him and fulfill them, shall we?? :)
LOVE

For we overcome by the word of our testimony and by the Blood of the Lamb!
~Revelations
Thank You Jesus!

Mario Mopar

story~
I was at Dunkin Donuts last night by my lonesome, I was kindof in distress thinkin' maybe if I went there to chill out I would feel better. I was trying to write one of my friends an email but no words were coming to me, I actually wrote one then deleted it because it didn't make much good sense in my sight. So, all the while here was an old man sitting across a table away from me and in the moments of my near dispair I would look up and look his way- and he was an older man older than older but not quite old- he had a full white beard, well groomed but not wiry and perfectly round like some- it was softer looking and some parts of the sides turned out ward instead of around.... he had white hair on his head but the very top was bald... and I knew he had seen me and was probably wondering what I was doing- and I was reaching certain emotional places where I search for something more--- like David when he says his eyes fail, my eyes were failing- as I was searching for my God... looking here and there- it wasn't so dramatic I was trying to keep it together in up in DD' - but I was having a bit of a moment... so I closed my yahoo email and something on the next screen said some names of people who I know are bold and I looked at the old man again and by now we had made eye contact one or twice and so he was looking down at his magazine in front of him and I finally just said, "hey, What's your name?"

he looked up..
"What's your name?" I said again
"Mario- what's your's?"
"Ashleigh"
"OH, Ashleigh! " Smile. Warm, gentle, sweet.
I searched my soul and kept trying to search for the Lord thinking maybe this guy was sent by God to speak to me of (Him) the Lord. So... I asked him if he believed in God.
"Of course..." he said. I could see in his eyes when he said that like he thought of God in his life- like in a second. (yet eternally)
I tried to see if I could think of what to say about my delimma or what could I ask advice on or how can I get the answer I'm looking for from him...
after some short talk and I was becoming less feeling like I needed to ask him of anything regarding my personal life, (because you never know when you will meet an angel on the streets)
I asked him what he was looking at and he had already told me he was down here from up north for a car auction, andthen he told me he was looking at a car magazine. not autotrader (i dont think)
So, we talked about hot rods and cars and he told me a story about some kid that goes to his shop for his subaru and how the kid thinks his sub is great (the old guy deals mostly with cudas and Dodges and Pontiacs from the 60's and 70's - big fast cars) and then I started to leave and he was still telling me the story, and as I had got up to go and I was standing near his table listening to him finish and he really wanted to show me the trucks that one of the guys that goes to his shop likes (a friend of the kid with the Subaru) ~ we spent like 15 minutes looking at old hot rod cars, bonding over colors and prices andsuch things. simple, yes. but who knows...

Maybe I needed that connection, to remember that I am not alone. Maybe I needed that older guy, Mario, to be there at that very time , so that he and I could talk about Mustangs and cudas and 190, 000 dollar cars and if they're worth it or not, to keep my mind free ~
Who Knows!?
<3
God knows what we need, When we need it!
And sometimes we don't get what we think we need, but what He knows we need~

sin - love - God

Is sin going to keep you from loving someone? Are we another's judge? I feel like we as people judge other people's sins and stop loving them, or stay far from them, becaus what they do is "wrong". But if it were family, it would be different. If it were someone of high rank, we would pray for them.
I'm speaking some of how I am - and some of how I've been treated. But now I realize now I see- -none of us is perfect. Why do we not love one another, like the LORD has told us to?

* mercy
* forgiveness
* justice
* freedom
* love
* righteousness
* truth
* life

Shalom~

11.25.09

maybe i am too sensitive -

or maybe i don't believe as much as I say I do  -

maybe I want to believe more -

and maybe i don't see myself the way you do...

God is Good.

I want to clarify somethings I posted last time I was online. I don't condone drinking, smoking and I'm not promoting Mercedes. But what I want to point out is that so many church goers that claim to be Christian or righteous or perfect have thier own problems that they hide or deny or cover up - and they point to others' sins without mercy, without compassion, without pity or understanding.
The world will never change unless we change. The world will never be a better place unless we make it a better place. We will never get along and love one another unless we take a step towards it.
I'm just grateful for His mercy and His grace and His forgiveness for me that covers my sins. I try to share that love with others. I am not perfect by far except that the love of God through Jesus Christ lives in me. That is something I am thankful and very grateful about.
Sometimes we have to let ourselves be saved. The Lord spoke to me about this a while back.... there used to be a popular song by Hillsong United called "Hosanna", which means "Save us on high"! Like, Save us now Lord!! Like an emergency.... likea desperate cry for salvation.
So, I used to listen to this song and sing it and pray and finally the Lord asked me, "Will you be saved?"
I was like, "What, Lord?"
"Will you be saved?"
Will I be saved? I guess I had not thought of it like that before... but I had been so stubborn, so lost, so abandoned that I was almost like the children of Israel trying to find thier way out of the wilderness.
Sometimes He wants to save us... I think I had (have) been trying to save myself.
It isn't always as hard as it seems, or as we're used to it being.
I had to let go and let God. I had to learn to trust Him. And Believe.
He is always Faithful, no matter what.
It would be like trying to save a drowning child who kept flailing around and wouldn't let you grasp them.... they have to surrender and trust you, that you will bring them safely back to shore, where thay can breathe and calm down.
I also have realized that sometimes my desire to help others can become a stumbling block to my own life. It is called co-dependancy.
I never understood what exactly that word meant. But now I do. It means if I care more about someone else's life issues more than I care about my own life, it becomes a trap to me..... their comes a time when people need to fix thier own life problems. Or at least make a diligent effort. I mean , we can't do it all alone, but we can't just sit in the mud forever either.
We gotta get up and clean up and walk the walk.... not just talk the talk.
I have to go now, but I hope this blesses my dear sweet friends.
Have a happy Sunday! :)

Let Truth be the Judge

I go to church. I have attended church on a fairly regular basis for about 5 years now. Not always the same church, but churches from the Protestant based "religion". I don't want to stop going to church. I think church has a very important place in society. But what I do want to stop is judgments. False accusations. False assumptions. Hatred. Pride. "Holier - than- thou" ness.
People in church will jump all over someone who for example smokes cigarettes, or drinks one glass of wine a week, or drives a mercedes benz. But they don't realize, they're are other seemingly less offensive bad behaviors or what I can call "bad habits" aka "addictions" that are hidden under cover that people don't even recognize or consider being a bad habit or addiction.
Let me throw one out there. How about tv? How much time do you sit in front of the television set? I hardly ever even watch tv. Not just because I don't get many channels. I think it's a waste of time and energy(in more than one form).
Ok, what about spending money? or over spending. I think in technical Biblical terms it could be called greed. Lust for more bigger better newer. Never satisfied with what you have.
I think people need to find something to do with their lives. Not just earning a living (work).
We are called to be ministers. Helpers. Lovers. (in a sense of loving people, not sexual) and yes also married. I do believe marriage is a ministry and I think I see people who do not minister to thier spouses enough.
It bothers me mostly because I see it in church more than anywhere else.
The Bible does also say sin is seeing something you should do (something good) and not doing it.
Like, if you see a lady or an old man in line in front of you and they are three dollars short on thier bill and you have five dollars and more enough for your own groceries, I think you are supposed to give it to them.
We (as people) need to quit being so stinkin' stingy and selfish and helpless and cruel.
Judging people is a terrible thing to do, to experience, and to witness.
It can make or break somebody.
Your judgments of someone can determine the outcome of thier life.
Can you dig to find gold?
Can you dig to find something good? Rubies? Sapphires? Emeralds? Diamonds?
What we see in people is dependant upon us. Sometimes we have to seek a little farther, or search a little deeper or keep looking until we find that special gift we have been looking for.
And I think we should not rob someone of thier gift, but clean it, polish it, show them it's value, and give it back to them and let it shine!
Why don't people love each other more?
Why are people so quick to judge and criticize? Why don't people pray for each other more? For thier good? For what they really need?
Are we afraid of not having? Are we envious? Why should we be? Haven't we been blessed?
Do we not love to be blessed? So we should also love it when our friends and neighbors and enemies be blessed as well.
I am praying for you all. Be Blessed! (And be a blessing !!!)

Isaiah 55:1-3
"Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me; hear me, that your soul may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David. "

I just wanna give a little Hallelujah~ to the Lord! It feels good to praise him when you know He is working ~ Oh Glory to the Lord ! In Sweet Jesus' name :) <3 <3 <3

(***SMILES**:)

Wisdom and Love (smile when you hear an owl)

What are we doing to be more like Christ?
What am I doing to be more like Christ? To be more honest, more patient, more loving, more faithfully believing?
I am trying~ I am working on it~ working it out~ pressing through~ seeing complete victory~
Praying for more~ desiring truth, love, depth, intimacy~Hope~
Settling down but not letting go~ Being calm yet still involved, not forgotten, not forgetting~ loving and letting myself be loved~ believeing in love~ sometimes unseen but always felt~ sometimes a mystery but in time revealt~ love is real and it is a big deal! it takes time~ it takes committment, patience faith and acceptence~ sometimes we don't get what we want all the time~ but that doesn't mean that it isn't worth loving, or being loved by the one ***
The stars of Orion are up in the sky~ The warrior with the bow and arrow~ reminding me of an arrow through the heart~ He caught me ~ with His love~ sometimes I try to love Him ~ and I do~ but He found me ~ when I was blue. And He made my dream my loves and my hopes come true. ~ Sometimes we , sometimes I, need to stop looking for love and find and notice and see the love I already have~inside. It is there, it is here, with me. And I am grateful. I am so Very gratefully thankful and warm and Loved. And in Peace. with the One. The One who Loves.

Yes Lord!

What is respect? to reverence.
What is reverence? How do you show reverence to someone?
what is revere? to stand in awe of... to let be what is. to regard with truth. worship. faith. trust.
We show reverence to God because He is Sovereign. What does it mean, He is Sovereign?
He can do whatever pleases him.
And He does! :)
He is Holy.
He is Pure.
He is Good.
All the time.

I want to praise the LORD. I want to live with more Joy in Him. I want to express my joy for Him. Free~ Sometimes I feel like I have been too hurt to praise, or too hurt to believe that my life can actually be more than what it has been. But I know beyond my own knowledge that He (the Lover of my Soul) Loves me more than I can imagine. And He wants greater things for me than what I could ask Him for. He loves me that much. Sometimes I find, that I have to shake myself. I have to make myself do things to breakthrough to where He wants me. Sometimes that means praising Him when I don't feel like it... sometimes it means stopping whatever I am doing and praying. Sometimes it has even been me praying that He would draw me to pray... I have been so distracted at times. But He IS Faithful. He knows when I want to come to Him, and He knows that sometimes I need an extra tug to get me moving. He knows what I need.... sometimes I just need to be more attentive and more obedient - Listen.
For every valley there is a mountain. Life is Amazing.
Wait on the LORD and He shall strengthen thine heart- Wait I say, on the LORD. (Psalms)

HAHA!!!!

ch ch...what's missing?
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cu there!
a sign I saw outside a local church!!!!!!

Choice

For what it’s worth, it’s never too late to be whoever u want to be. There’s no time limit; start whenever u want; u can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best of it or the worst of it...I hope u live a life that you’re proud of & if u find that you’re not, I hope u have the strength to start all over again. ~Benjamin Button

The Power of choice.
We all have it.
We all use it.
But do we use it the way we should?
Do we use it the way we could?
Do we use it the way we need to, or the way that will be good for all of us?
(kindof a trick question there!)
What can we do with our choices?
What can we choose?

The Door is open....what will you choose????

What do you want? What do you need?

I went for a walk today. From Downtown DeLand to my house. It was terrible. It was probably one of the worst experiences I have had in a while. But what made it so bad wasn't that I had to walk... and it wasn't from the heat (it's rather nice out) - but the fact that I had to walk alone.
I felt like people driving by were hating me- and why? I do not know.
I know this might sound silly- but I wanted to be saved from that walk home, by myself.
I think I needed it though.. because I learned a little something... maybe a big something...
as I was thinking about people... mankind...human beings.... and sin... evil and wickedness on the earth... I prayed, and I pray, that people would see the truth. Of sin. About sin.
What they think they want will never satisfy thier cravings. All the money in the world will not make anyone respect you, and it will never tell you it loves you.
I see people acting out in ways they think will bring some sort of vengeance or recompence emotionally or financially- but man's ways are wrong. Man for some reason chooses the wrong way - unless he hears from God. (and does it)
I have seen it... and I have learned -
Even people of high esteem even in church, even pastors will say thing that will make you think -

Because we all need each other- and we all need to be merciful to each other. We need to have mercy on people, not on thier sins. How do you handle sin? And mercy? Confront the sin dead on. Love.

What I realized today, is that the only thing that will satisfy man's or woman's or children's or elder's or anybody's desire for life, is love.
Love, Joy, Peace, Gentleness, Kindness, Faith, Meekness, Temperance, Self-Control.
These are the Fruits of the Spirit.
These are what we need to eat to satisfy our hungry hungry souls.......!

And we will never get anywhere looking at others and being envious.....Everybody is different...not everybody's needs are the same... Not everybody is called to be the same.

note:the wide and broad vs. the straight and narrow. - we are supposd to be in the world, but not of it. and we are supposed to not love the world nor anything in it, and what I think that means are it's ways - not to love the world's ways--- because God Himself sent JEsus to save the world because He loved (had pity on) it so much.

We need to be more accepting of "people's" differences... and more appreciative, too. It's not the oneness of the ways we look or how we act, but oneness of true character - do you truly love me? do you truly forgive me? do you truly love God?
That is true unity of the Spirit.

Relationships require Sacrifice and service.
Our greatest relationship is with Christ.
For whom we sacrifice and serve.
what is sacrifice? what can we sacrifice?
faith. love. a glance. a hug.
what is service? how can I serve someone?
can you wait on them? can you wait for them? can you do something small (good)for them? without telling them? without making them feel condemned?

I thank God for my heart, for His heart for me....
I thak God for His Word. And His truth. And His Freedom. And His Glory!
And I think if "people" we're more thankful and appreciative of what they have, they would begin to see a pure way, too.

Godbless you all in Christ's name!

What to do....

Sometimes I feel like I'm an apostle of Jesus Christ. I think if God can make a female apostle, that I am one!
I relate to the Apostle Paul so much... but I always try to be obedient to Jesus' teachings more.
(Because He IS tha Lord!)

My car has been broken for about three weeks now. I kindof think that it may be the Lord's way of responding to my thoughts of worldliness. (I am always looking at the world and how people always drive drive drive... computerize stay inside.... basically I want to get out and LIVE!)
So, today I couldn't get a ride to town, and I decided to walk. I wanted to take my laptop in a bag.. but I remembered Jesus said "take no 'purse'" - so I had to make myself leave it there... and I walked Downtown!
While I was walking... I was praying, for people...people passing by.
Some (guys of course) honked... which made me pray more-- like, do they wish they were outside walking? (Just Joking... well...maybe)
But... I started thinking about all the stuff I've "done" that I think is outside of what people feel like is "OK"- or "right" to do (in the worlds eyes)
I just want to list some things I've done that have made me feel good... honestly maybe a little proud, too.

I have:
- been outside in rainstorms
- jumped off a two story roof and not broken a bone
- Lived on a "fish camp" in the middle of Louisiana (pop. about 400)
- been to 4 free Christian concerts (Brandon Heath, Leigh Nash, Mark Schultz, Tenth Ave North)
-taken the greyhound by myself to ATL GA
- written a book of poetry
I've had my ups and downs with my life, before Salvation and after...
these are but a few things I have experienced, I guess in my mind the most often thought about...the reason I like to remember them is because they were moments and times in my life that I either had to decide if I was going to let my own fears stop me, or follow freedom into that joy....
I find myself wanting more and more to leave off the "old ways" of thinking.. the ways that the world or worldy people have hurt me and / or let me down and left me empty inside thatI try to fill- Yet I much more
desire to find the freedom and the Life that Christ died to give me.
I guess so often I find myself in my flesh... reacting to what I think it wants or needs. But when I think about that way, I realize that is NOT the Way.
But the Way of Life Eternal is becoming much more clear. And much more worth while. I pray more for myself... more for you. Life Abundantly, in Jesus Christ! AMEN
I am Thankful - for That!
Praise the LORD.

blood heart life

Matthew 6:33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Have we become self-seeking? Self-centered? Self-gratifying?
Worrisome of just being "fulfilled" in this life, or "recognized" for what we do here on earth, or "gratified" in our flesh???
When did we stop living for the Kingdom of God?
When did we stop trusting and believing?
When did we stop seeking and praying?
When will we return ? (to Him)?
When did we stop loving our neighbors?
When did we stop loving our church members?
When did we stop loving our spouses, our children, our families?
When did we stop loving, truly loving others??

When did we try to understand (to love) our enemies? When did we pray for them???
When is the last time we prayed and believed that what we prayed and asked for would come to pass???
When did we listen to His Voice?

When is the last time we believed in true love?
When's the last time we were truly sorry about hurting someone?
When's the last time we truly loved someone - and weren't ashamed, or embarrassed or afraid of it?
When's the last time you were set free????
When's the last time you got a Word from the Lord?
When's the last time you got on your knees and prayed?
when's the last time you were completely honest with yourself, someone else and God?

When's the last time you loved your Lord, thy God - with all your self???
And when's the last time you were trulythankful? And truly very grateful???

Come back to me- come back to the lover of your soul- Says the LORD.
Come back to the Creator of Life - and Life itself is here to find you.
What kind of life do you want to have? What will it take for you to have it?
The only limits you have, are the ones you put on yourself!


Just because you're at church - doesn't make you a Christian...Just because you say you're a Christian, doesn't make you one---
Are you forgiving? Are you loving? Are you meek and mild? Are you pure? Do you always give honestly? Are you clean? Do you worship God in truth and in Spirit? Do you pray?
Are you given to lust like sexual desires or are you given to God?
Are you given to the cares of this life or to the Will of God?

We are not in a box.
We are not chained.
We are not harmful-
We need to believe more in the love of God inside us- and each other and live.
We will not have our earthly lives forever - we might as well enjoy them while we're here - and what better way than serving the LORD. and keeping His Word. (commandments)
For He said if we love Him, we will keep His commandment - and Hid commandment is not grievious- It is Light and Truth. Freedom and a Glory to Him ( and to us!)
To love one another through and through~ that is how He knits our hearts together~In Him.
Amen.

Fear the LORD, thy God.
Love the LORD thy God.
Favor the LORD thy God - above all else.
<3so be it.

watching, waiting, praying, trusting....

If y'all didn't know, I have been "desperatley seeking someone" (that special someone) for a while. I keep praying about it and I'm not going to question, I'm not going to doubt - those would be rude to the Lord and I am not going to do that or be that way toward Him. But what I am saying to Him is, "Lord, I trust you... I believe there is a reason why I'm waiting... I trust in Your timing, and Your perfect will. "
I believe He knows exactly what I desire, have need of and am waiting on Him for. And I'm o.k. with that.
:0 )
Love is worth the waiting for....

My New Song

I was walking through downtown DeLand about three weeks ago and I told the Lord I wantedto sing... so I sang and the Words He gave me were,
"I don't mind, what the world may say, I will love you, anyway , and I don't mind what the world may do, I will always worship you"
When I went to church later that aftenoon, we had a few minutes to testify, so I got up and told the church about the Lord blessing me with a song. Yes, I sang it for them!
Then when I went home after that I wrote more words and guitar chords to it...
"I don't mind what the world may say~I will love You, anyway.
I don't mind, what the world will do~ I will always worship You.
I don't mind what the world may say~ I will serve You, everyday.
I don't mind what the world will do~ I will always Follow You.
"Cause You're the One who gives me Light to see~ That You're the only love I need.
- And You're the One who makes my dreams come true, I love You Lord, and I worship You ~
I don't mind what the world will say, I will love You, anyway~And I don't mind, what the world will do~ I will always...come to You."

I HAVENT HAD MUCH TIME TO SPEND WRITING ON HERE LATELY... BUT I HAVE BEEN TYPING MY POEMS IN PREPARATION TO LOOK FOR A PUBLISHER... AND LIFE HAS BEEN GOOD, I'VE BEEN VERY BLESSED LATELY. I HOPE ALL MY READERS ARE AS WELL! GODBLESS YOU ALL AND ENJOY THE COOLER WEATHER... TA TA FOR NOW!~

Be thankful, be Grateful.

Let's be thankful for everything we have been given~ let us not complain about what we think we lack or what we "want" and do not have.... if we are meant to have it, it will come, in it's time. Everything has its time and place.
Have Faith. and Wait!

they were called "Christians...."

I got to thinking among a few things last night when I opened my Bible. It opened right at the New Testament page of the Gospel According to Saint Matthew. And the word Saint stuck out to me.... and I thought... what exactly is a Saint... Who is a Saint.. what makes you and me or anyone a Saint of the Most High God?
I felt like I had known Saints before.... and it felt like we had forgotten Who We Are in this world... to the world and to the LORD.
Let's not forget that we are called, set apart, ordained, chosen-Called~ Beloved, Delivered, SAVED, Anointed, Blessed beyond measure, HOLY~ PURE, THE LIGHT OF THE EARTH~ WE need to remind ourselves AND each other, encouraging each other loving one another.... forgiving each others faults because NO One is PERRFECT... and if we aren't willing and forgiving towards each other how can we willingly forgive the unsaved and also keep the Lord's commandments?????
SO~ I want to lift you all up and remind you that YOU are: CALLED, CHOSEN, LOVED, BELOVED, ANOINTED, SET APART, BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE, HOLY, PURE, SAVED, ORDAINED, DELIVERED, SET FREE, HEALED, WHOLE, ONE WITH JESUS.
amen. so be it!
<3 3

...define Saint for me...

Main Entry: 1saint
Pronunciation: \ˈsānt, before a name (ˌ)sānt or sənt\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French seint, saint, from Late Latin sanctus, from Latin, sacred, from past participle of sancire to make sacred — more at sacred
Date: 13th century
1 : one officially recognized especially through canonization as preeminent for holiness2 a : one of the spirits of the departed in heaven b : angel 1a3 a : one of God's chosen and usually Christian people b capitalized : a member of any of various Christian bodies; specifically : latter-day saint4 : one eminent for piety or virtue5 : an illustrious predecessor
— saint·dom \ˈsānt-dəm\ noun
— saint·like \ˈsānt-ˌlīk\ adjective
(merriam-webster.com)

~The Only Answer...is CHRIST~

When the Bible says, in the Book of Proverbs, "Wounds from a friend are faithful...yet the kisses of an enemy are decieving.."

Why is it, we get so easily offended when a Christian friend, sister or brother rebukes, corrects or chastises us? The word seems harsh, hard to bear, hard to swallow... it becomes easy to make a friend an enemy by being offended by what they may say- But I guess we need to learn the art of "speaking the truth in love..." , and we need to be willing to take a good honest look in the mirror... and we need to get real with ourselves and with the LORD.

We need to use Jesus' words as an example - He being the embodiment of Love - is The Example we should pray to follow.

How can we represent love and truth these days, when people don't want to hear it?
How can we convince sinners and backsliders and the unsaved that what they're missing is the Love of God- and that it's the ONLY THING that can heal their hurts, fix their broken hearts, can be THE ANSWER to their question(s)...can satisfy their hungry souls.
How can we show them that God's love is sooo Wonderful??
How can we show them... He is all they need?
And that He is just...waiting for them to Believe.....

I praise the LORD, because He is the Holy One. I praise the LORD, because He is Faithful. I praise the LORD because He is truly great!
So Be It, AMEN.

"TRUST JESUS"

Look at What You See.

Look at the good things in life...
Instead of looking at fault, look at love.
Instead of letting sin devastate your life, let Jesus' forgiveness and mercy cleanse you and save you, completely.
Instead of seeing bad things in the world, look at the good things that God does for us.
Look for His love in people, look for His joy in the simple things; look for His peace and His sweet Presence in the quiet times...and look for Faith in His goodness.

God is always good.

If we repent of our sins, He will always forgive us. If we turn to Him, He will not cast us away.
Instead of fearing evil, or destruction- or terror, make a difference: pray.
Pray until you hear from God.
Pray until HE gives you the peace you want.
Pray until you get the answer.
Pray until you believe- Pray until you believe.

My friend Julia said a long time ago... "It's a love story..."
Our lives are love-stories...some broken, some whole...some growing, some needing to be saved.....
Thinking something in your head doesn't always make it true...
Faith without works is dead..
Instead of being cast down, and sorrowed; hope.... for the LORD knows what's on your mind, and He knows...

Instead of running FROM God run TO Him. Instead of running from the truth, run TO it.
Instead of fighting, surrender...
Instead of giving in, hold up-
Don't give in - Be strong in the LORD.
Instead of being alone, remember, God said "You are not alone-"

If you want friends, be a friend. Be the kind of friend you want to have. You will probably attract the same kind of person. Believe.

Is it better to believe, or not believe?
Is it better to be loved, or hated?
Is it better to believe you are loved ?

Is it better to love or to hate?

Live - instead of watching your life go by, while you watch others' lives....while you sit and judge and hope for doom.
Repent- and look to God, the God of LOVE, and Glory, and Goodness and Love.
He will honor those that honor Him.

Be blessed.

SWEET VICTORY

I'm lookin' for the Victory~ The Spirit of Truth to set me Free~
Where love is pure, and shame no more~
I'm lookin' to the gracious LORD~

He isn't amazed by our hearts aches and pains,
He knows all things and His truth forever reigns~

The LORD our God is my Victory~
He's the One who makes me Sing.

~
And I will sing~ Of His praises...forevermore~
I love You, Lord~
I love you, more~my child, my chosen one, my beloved, look to the precious one~
Jesus~
amen~

Love changes things.....

I thought today about the word "change". How many things could this word be applied to that would make a difference in our lives.
We could change our attitudes, we could change our perspective, we could change our habits, we could change our vocabulary, we could change our jobs, we could change our effort, we could change our walks with God, we could change soooo many things in life, if only we'd try.......... and not give up.
passion.
where is your passion for Life? where is your pasion for God? where is your conviction, your drive your motivation? What is your motivation? What gets you stirred up? what moves you? what are you drawn to? Whether we die or live until Christ comes- what are you living for? to watch tv every night and have no one? have nothing, do nothing? mean nothing?
think about it. Think about connection... think about purpose--meaning--depth... hieght---find something to move God with- for Good and not evil, for Love. Do it for Love.
Move. Life is moving, life is alive-living breathing .....non stopping.....like the blood spilling from Jesus crown, like the tears streaming from the broken heart.... like the river washing, running through the cities and the countrysides through the land..... like the breeze coming off the ocean... it comes and goes, like the Spirit- where don't know "where" from we know Who it's from but we do not know everything like we sometimes think we do......... there is One who does.. Search Him, Seek Him... Look to Him not to man.. not to people.... not to each other. Seek the Truth, the Life, the Way. Seek the God of heaven and of earth. Find your purpose and your solution and the answer to your passion in Him~ He is Glorious! ~Glory be to God. ~

and God IS the Rock, yes be like Him, but in what...? Don't not move in love- Move in love, don't not move in cmpassion, move in compassion! Don't not care, Care! Do what's in your heart if it be of God---- God moves- He is not moved, but He moves. ~

write me!

soooo... i just enabled comments. i just found out they weren't enabled. oops.

~Burning Desire~

Burning flames of my desire As I'm walking through the fire
See the future, leaving past
Present moments, here at last
Swirling thoughts and memories ~
As I sleep becoming dreams
Life so gentle Life so rough
makes me wise and act so tough

For a hope I have within me~ A treasure of true love to spin me~
'Round and 'round but don't fall down~
Because I don't belong on the ground...~

...my heart is full of faith tonight~ God so help me keep it right...

the Walls of Jerusalem

So, the walls sometimes have to come down, but I read a scripture in Jeremiah 15:19-20 and it talks about keeping your wall up. Sometimes I guess we need a wall- Jerusalem was a fortified city. Meaning it was walled-Protected. Not just anybody could go up into the city of Jerusalem...it was Holy. Some walls are for protection. And that is a Great thing! Love always protects.
Amen.

~

When I was young, I had a lot of problems. I was really neglected, at least I felt like it, and I guess in a way I was.... I went through a lot of things with myself... and I was always with myself. We are always with ourselves. That's why it is so important to do right, so that you can live with yourself.
I went through a poetry book I have and there's only a few in this one particular book, its a binder with about 10 poems I've selected out of all the ones written... and today as I was looking through it to find one inparticular to copy for a friend, I read a few of the poems in this binder... becaue they're all in a way a reflection of my life. I read one and read another from right to left (pages- I was turning them back) and I was sitting and praying a little and then I realized the dates on them. One was at the beginning of a year, and the other was at the end. And they were both written a long time ago. I thought that was really beautiful. I had never noticed that before.

I will post them, in the order they were written.


"Conquering Myself's Own Will"
Standing outside myself-
Gazing deep within-
I think I finally see-
How messed up my actions have been-
Pull the chain and light my fire-
My body is trembling like I got shocked by live wire-
Death falls and so do we-
I think you need to carry me-
Forgetting what I didn't know-
Dying too fast and growing up slow-
Separate and rearrange-
Take apart whose left to blame-
"Conquering myself's own will"
1.8/9.00

A Dreamy Poem
Seizing my Rendition from the Hands of God-
Please splatter my love all over your brain's walls
And paint them up to where they won't fall-
Hit the play button and watch the time go by-
My wandering mind wonders
"If I had wings would I fly?"
Crystal like complections on the sky of glass above~
Seeing the moon cry stars is for my one and only love...~

Do you think..?
Maybe ~
I could be dreaming...
For if I am
I won't stop breathing~
12.3.00

God Is On The Move!

Here's a song we sing at church sometimes....

"God is on the move, there's excitement in the air!
God is on the move, He's touching people-everywhere!
The Promise of The Spirit is 'Be now Whole', to everyone that's thirsty for more,
God is on the move, He's all over this land!"


Godbless!!! And God is AWESOME!!!!!!!!

The Truth From the Lies

What is the difference from the Truth and the lie?
How come people get decieved sometimes? Because lies are tricky and sometimes hard to distinguish as to whether they are real or not. And sometimes lies are pieces of truth twisted up- that is how most people get decieved. They think because some of what the lie is is truth, then it all must be truth and they settle for a lie.
But that is not the case with God. He is Complete and Full Truth. In Him is No lie. And The Truth is Rock Solid. It doesnt fail or falter- it proves itself Pure over and over again.
There is no question to Truth.
Sometimes people don't want to do or hear or believe the Truth, because it means they have to change, or go through and emotionally "embarrassing" situation, or give up something(s) they want to hold on to.
But if you really want the Truth- if you are truly desireing the One and Only Thing that will satiate and complete you- then seek the Truth. The Whole Truth. It will not lie!
Amen.

Sin and Shame

Why is sin so hard to deal with sometimes? Shame. When we sin, we hide it from our friends, family, God, ourselves- we hate it... we hate sin.... we don't want to look at it... we don't like the way it makes us feel, we don't like what it does to our lives... so we bury it in our selves and become ashamed of what we have done...
But Jesus came so that we might lay hold of what He came for- Forgivenes of sin. He takes our sins (as we confess them to Him and give over our lives to Him) and He nailed them to the Cross- in Himself- to set us free!
There is nothing better than that, my Friends!
Aren't you glad about that, today??!!
I am!
:)
WE CAN BE FREE! IN THE LOVE OF GOD THROUGH JESUS CHRIST HIS ONE AND ONLY BEGOTTEN SON!
BE SAVED AND BE FULL OF HIS GLORY!
amen

From Kim Potter Ministries

Prophecy

This morning as I was praying for some of our partners, I began to declare that a new day was dawning - a couple hours later one of our partners sent me this prophecy - I want to share it with you today.

Prophetic word of the Lord given by Dr. Mark Chironna on Sunday, July 26, 2009 at The Master's Touch International Church in Longwood, Florida:
For there have been days of sadness and sorrow. For some, there have been days of strange warfare. For others, there have been days of taking thoughts captive that never entered the minds of sons before. For some, there have been deep longings. For others, there have been deep yearnings. For some, there have been long seasons of silence. For others, there have been long seasons of pleading.
But for all, there is coming a dawning. There is coming a breaking through. There is coming a rising. There is coming an opening. For the eyes of the Lord are turned toward His sons, His daughters, His children, and He sees and knows and is intimately acquainted with the sufferings and the tests and the endurances that His people have been going through.
He will make His people a praise in this season. He will make His people a glory in this hour. For His affection is upon His people. His Church is His Beloved. His Church is His Bride. He will not forsake her. He will not disown her. For He now is revealing, through the tests of the sons and daughters of God, to principalities and powers, His manifold glory.
This season has not been for naught. This season has not been to wear you out. This season has not been to tear you down. This season has been to prove and manifest to the forces of darkness that the Church cannot be hindered; the Church cannot be stopped, and the Church cannot be thwarted for she will rise in this hour with greatness and glory. She will have weapons on the left and on the right. She will have dominion in arenas she never had dominion before. And God will make her young again.
For hear now what the Spirit of Grace would say to those who have ears to hear: "I am making you young again. I am going to restore the seasons of loss. I am going to restore the seasons of denial. I am going to restore the seasons of betrayal. I am going to restore the seasons of strife, and when I restore them, and it will be in yet a little while, I will turn the captivity of My people and there will be laughter again in Zion. There will be joy again in Zion.
"I have seen the sacrifice of praise that has gone up from the ends of the earth. I have seen My people, who in the midst of their warfare, have lifted their hands high and have shouted the shout of victory even while the powers of darkness have seemed to prevail over their minds, hearts and spirits. Yet, even in the face of demons, My people still praise. Even in the face of dark forces, My people still rejoice. Now watch, for I am about to crush satan under your feet."

LOVE Unfathomed.

Yesterday, I had some time off, and I have really needed to get some sun on my legs, so I decided to go to the pool at the YMCA. I was on my way, and I was going through downtown Deland, heading east on 44- I remembered suddenly a prophecy I had read a few days ago- that had spoken to me tremendously (by Mark Chironna), and part of the prophecy said to watch for "the sign posts" - and how they were very meaningful... so as I was traveling I saw on the light at the intersection of New York and Woodland, "no turns". I prayed and quickened my spirit to the Lord, and I heard from Him New Smyrna Beach. I said-- Oh yes,LORD! Because I love the beach and it hadn't even crossed my mind that I had time enough to go there...so I went down 44 to New Smyrna Beach.
As I was driving, about a little before "half-way" there, I saw a car that looked like a "guy I like"'s car.and I thought, "I bet that was "him", he was probably at the beach..."... and I kept on..
I finally got to New Smyrna and I didn't have any money to spend to get on the beach, so I had to ask the person at the beach ramp where public parking was and I went there and found a very nice parking place right at the first row near the boardwalk .;)

I went on the beach and put my towel down and relaxed near some people...and watched the waves, and the people, and the birds... and the sky. It was Wonderful.
After about an hour or so.. it started to thunder and everybody around started to get up, myself included and I went to my car and started back home.
When I got back on 44, I looked in my rearveiw mirror, and noticed a few cars back a car, again, that I thought looked like "his", and all the sudden, I thought...."what if he came here to watch and make sure I was safe....and then quietly went back on his way..."
I felt a love like nothing compared.
I've been loved like that before, and there's nothing in the world like it.
I do not know, if in fact it was "him" - but it reminded me of what true love is. And of what pure love is, and chivalry.
There is still love like this, people. Don't let the world and it's "fillers" steal your love or your passion or your chivalry or your true joy from you-EVER!
Our God is a deep God- A Pure Love...Real, and something unfathomable.
Love ~
I do not know if it was my "friend" that I like so much... but pray for me ... to remember and/or discover in God what Real, Pure, True Love really is............and You all are in my prayers.
Love, Ashleigh<3

A WORD FROM THE LORD

"This is of Me, Sayeth the LORD,
"FOR I AM THE KING OF LOVE."
"THE KING OF LOVE;
''THE KING OF HEARTS."
"I KNOW ALL ABOUT LOVE,
"FOR I AM THE KING OF LOVE, and
"THE KING OF HEARTS."
"LOVE IS OF ME," SAYS THE LORD,
"FOR I AM THE KING OF LOVE."
SAYS THE HOLY LORD, THE ONE TRUE GOD.
AMEN.

.A WORD FROM THE LORD.
The people perish, for a lack of love. The people perish, in unforgiveness.
Even tiny offenses, can become like great canyons between people's hearts. The people's think their ways are always right-they think anger is ok, and they think bitterness is the way. but they forget that forgiveness is the key to love. They lost the key, and can't find it, Yet they forget what I did, to forgive them of their sins- when I came in man's form-in Jesus Christ's body-2000 years ago. They forget that forgiveness isn't easy, and they choose to do what's easy. But they will be paid for what they do...but those that pay the full price, to fully forgive each other, will be rewarded. They will be Rewarded with Life, and Mercy, and Love. Forevermore.
In the Name Above Every Name-Amen.

"Seek ye the LORD, while He may be found...call ye upon Him while He is near..."
Isaiah 55:6

Pastor Raley from Calvary Christian Center in Ormond Beach quoted this on his facebook status today, and I think it needs to be shared,
" Fear tolerated becomes faith contaminated! Smear the fear today!"
YES, and AMEN~!
JESUS!

to thine own self be true

To thine own self be true...
I thought of this today, last night actually... after pondering what I wrote about letting our guards down... (for those of us who have been hurt, and tend to put up a guard around people to try to avoid being hurt more).
I spent a good half hour earlier today writing a really nice message, but it somehow got lost during a saving and a publishing... so I am going to have to rewrite it... and I thought to the LORD, and prayed, because I was a little upset about losing it, but I prayed and said, maybe there's a reason He didn't want it to be published, maybe I need to change something or add something, and I do... so here goes:

To thine own self be true. That's a quote from a fiction(not-true) story by William Shakespeare, but we can apply it to real life, and it speaks a great volume about our relationships with ourselves, and with others.
What does it mean, "be true"?
Well, what is truth?
Truth is pure to itself...and it's followers.
Truth does not deny itself.
Truth is honest with itself.
I looked up "true" in the merriam-webster online dictionary...
the first word under it's definition is "steadfast"
I once wanted to get the word "steadfast" tattooed on my body... because the meaning of the word is very powerful. I was going to get it in Hebrew, because in the Hebrew, the term "steadfast" has more depth than just "always there".
In Hebrew, it means faithful, truth, honest, loyal.
In other words, Real. unwavering.
there is a great strength in that word.

Being real has always been something I strive to be.
But sometimes in life, it can be difficult, painful or embarrassing to be real- even with ourselves.
That is where we have to decide if we are going to let God have our hearts, and to let Him have His way.
That is often a place where we either humble ourselves or puff ourselves up. I have struggled with pride for a long time. Because I have been hurt badly, by a lot of close people in my life. And I had built walls around me- walls around my heart, walls around my life. But I deeply long for intimacy, for truth, for freedom to be myself without having to "be" somebody else, or something I'm not. And in order to do that, I've had to (first seek God like crazy!), and then, pray like everyday for the LORD to make me humble enough to realize that I am not "all that " ( and a bag of chips as some would say)- but realize that it's all about the Love of God for His people. And He knows the desires of my heart-- one of them being that I want to be myself and be accepted for who I am. To let my guard down... and... discover who I am... to bear my heart with all I am. Because it's all for God--- and I love Him and all I want is to glorify Him-. Another thing He has shown me, is that no matter who comes in my life- He Alone is still and always will be the LORD of my life. I belong to God- and He belongs to me. Therefore, my value and worth in God's sight cannot and will not be judged or altered by what another person wants to think or say about me. I am approved by God, accepted by God, and loved by God- all through His glorious Son , Jesus Christ. He alone is Worthy of all my Praise!

It's one way or the other. There is no in between. And then there's God.

You may get puffed up- but deep down, you wish you were humble- down-to-earth, and at peace with your self, so that you could relate to others and trust them.
But trusting people is a challenge to people who have trusted and been crushed by it.
So I have had to learn, to judge people by thier fruits- Jesus tells us to do so- He said "Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheeps clothing, but inwardly are ravenous wolves".
My Pastor once said- "Everyone that smiles at you ain't always your friends- every one that seems nice to you ain't always your friend..."
Proverbs says,
"Wounds from a friend are faithful, but kisses from an enemy are decietful"
I used to worry What if I kiss someone I love, does that mean I am trying to decieve them...no!
It doesn't butwhat it means is if someone is willing to tell you the truth you may be hurt by it- but they do it in love, because it's for your best intrest....but people can butter you up and kisskiss up on you and then you think you are so "loved" or so "special" and then they can get anything from you or cause you to fall....
so we have to be willing to pray and to use righteous judgement.
If there is someone in Christ who you see, and you judge- I think if we look at a person and judge thier actions it should be to gain knowledge- and if they are not righteous we should pray for thier restoration, not condemn them.
If they are NOT in Christ, then we should avoid them according to the Bible.
1 John talks all about this...
I'm not sure why this message went this way... I had written something totally different earlier...
About being true to thine own self- no matter what other people say or do or think....
but I guess this is what needed to be said, instead!
Being real- is a willingness to look in a mirror and see everything that's there-
it's being willing to tell God everything that you're dealing with - even if you can't express it- or find exactly what you're trying to say.... because it's all about Him anyways- and He already knows what's in our hearts- He just wants a people who is willing to settle down, focus on Him- and deal with the Truth.


Not everyone's gonna love you.
Not everyone's gonna like you.
But God loves you- and He accepts you just for who you are.
You don't need anyone's approval but the Lord's.
You don't have to do a thing to be loved.....
God loves you no mater what.
You don't have to be a certain way- or accomplish any big thing to be acceptable to God- in other words- in Bible terms- it isn't about "works", but it's about faith, and faith works by love. God loves you so much more than you can even imagine..... and He will always, always love you.
In Jesus' name. amen.

"To thine Own Self BE True"....William Shakespeare

Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point.
~C.S.Lewis

Walls

One of my beloved Pastors in the Faith recently said "THE WALLS MUST COME DOWN!"
And I AGREE!!! In Jesus name!

Be ACCEPTED FOR WHO YOU ARE- BECAUSE YOU ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE~

LEARN TO LET YOUR GUARD DOWN~AND LEARN TO LOVE~ LEARN TO BE-LOVED~

LEARN TO RECIEVE LOVE!

LOVE IS GOOD!

AND THE HOLY BIBLE SAYS, THAT PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT ALL FEAR---

NOT SOME, NOT A LITTLE, BUT ALL OF IT!

GOD IS LOVE, AND YOU ARE CREATED TO LOVE AND BE LOVED!!!
I LOVE YOU!! iN JESUS NAME!

pride comes before a fall, but humilty comes before honor!!! (Proverbs)

p.s.... let the guard down... it takes practice... SOMETIMES we gotta keep 'em up.... but sometimes we gotta shout and tear 'em down--- to get to where we need to be, to be who we were created to be~.... The Lord once told me, " Learn to be vulnerable, and yet, responsible"~ (emotionally.... and with my whole life.)
God is SO GOOD! :))
God BLEss you ALL!
XO~A.

trust...redemption...freedom...faith....love.

Have you ever messed up so bad, that you felt like you couldn't trust your own judgment? Or have you ever sinned to the point, where you felt like you began to lose sight of the difference between what's right and what's not? Have you ever questioned whether you were able to serve God the way He designed you to... have you ever tried to overcome a sin and failed at it so much that you did not know how to go on - in the Faith?

I have felt and experienced all of these. But now I am free. And I want to tell you what I learned from these experiences in my life, these trials and errors, failures, falls and questions....
1. You cannot mess up to the point of God not forgiving you,If you are a saved born-again believer. You might say, what about the serial killer- I am not preaching to him, I am preaching to the born-again redeemed son and daughter of God, who have failed and sought and have not yet reighned over and have not yet found thier complete Salvation.
Is it possible to not find or have your complete Salvation?, you ask. Yes. How can I tell you this ?? Because the Word of God says... to continue to work out your own salvation with fear and trembling....(Philippians 2:12). that means Salvation is a process. At least, my Salvation has been a process... and this is what I am speaking by...
2. God will never give up on you.
If you stray or wander away from Him, or mess up and become too ashamed to talk to Him, guess what, He already even knows THAT! So, you might as well 'fess up... get it outta your heart and off your chest, and tell Him you feel like an idiot for messing up.. tell Him how much you miss(ed) Him and tell Him how much you want to be Right.
He will Forgive you, I promise!
3. It is possible to serve the LORD the way He designed us, (you). He made us all different yet all the same in the fact that we all have a unique purpose for His purpose.... and His laws and precepts and ways and chastisments and rebukes are for your benefit, not for your punishment. They are for your protection, not for your limitation... for your freedom not to restrain you... and for your best intrest. I heard a long time ago... when I was first learning the Gospel, that children actually crave discipline. I was never really punished as a child to the point of being, like, "raised" in a way where I was chastened, but according to research, even though it seems like children would want to get away with anything and everything they want... deep down inside they want to be corrected, they want to be taught, the want to know what's right and wrong.... it's innate- it's how God designed His creatures. The flesh doesn't like it, the flesh won't agree... but does it really ever- willingly???????? ;)
4. All I can say about overcoming sin that you can't seem to get over on your own... it is not easy. In fact, I personally had to go through a deliverance to get free from my sinfulness. But now I am free, and nothing can take that away. In the name of Jesus Christ-amen!
I guess it comes to a point where you get so tangeled up in sin that there is no way out- there is no unraveling it- you have to cut the strings- you have to use the sword- and then you are free.

But freedom is possible, freedom is real- and freedom is great!!!

2 Corinthians 10:3-5
3For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Psalm 32:5
5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD "— and you forgave the guilt of my sin. Selah

Psalm 129
1 They have greatly oppressed me from my youth— let Israel say-
2 they have greatly oppressed me from my youth, but they have not gained the victory over me.
3 Plowmen have plowed my back and made their furrows long.
4 But the LORD is righteous; he has cut me free from the cords of the wicked.


Trust the Spirit of Truth. Listen. Believe.

God is LOVE- He always has your best in mind.
For He is LOVE-His Vey Nature, is LOVE.
amen.

~The Rainbow in the Heavens~

Tonight, this evening I was driving through the country and it had been raining and I noticed a faint rainbow up in the sky~ the farther I went I noticed the rainbow started to grow and become more intense in color.
The road turned in a direction that the bow was on the left.. and it was full. it went in a complete bow across the sky. So, I kept going and I really wanted to pull over (but there was a police officer a little ways behind me and I did not want to be asked why was I stopping.. ) but about a mile later he was gone and I pulled over and just watched and prayed as the rainbow lived it's life.
I always think about the LORD when I see a rainbow and His promise to His creation. And then I always think about His promises to me that He's made.... I know He is Faithful.
So.. as the rainbow started fading on one side, the other side grew real bright in color, and went up into the clouds... into the heavens, and disappeared... and I was thinking unto the LORD, ahhh.. the rainbow is going to meet You in the heavens Lord... how sweet...!
And He told me to look again... at the rainbow coming from the heavens.. to the earth- and He said that is like His promises, that He sends, from the heavens to the earth, for us.
He is a Sweet Lord.... :).

update

SOOO, I have tried to post a couple songs that I had recorded with my friend's computer a while back, but she cleaned her computer and now they are gone! Forever!!!!!!! :( they were really good but whateve!! I tried recording more but my voice is kinda messed up right now and I'm going to the Dr tomorrow to see whats "wrong" so......... maybe when my head feels better I can get something done!!
Anyways- and Also God has been doing really really cool stuff in my life lately. He is so close to me and He is answering ALL my prayers!! With His Awesome Spirit! I LOVE THE LORD FOREVER! Yes, and AMEN!

1. Godbless you people!!! XXOO ~

What's Your Name?

So, I have been asking the LORD to refine me- to cleanse me and such. And as I've been praying- I came across something that I deal with - that I never quite articulated in my understanding- till now.
I was praying about my pride...
because sometimes, I have way too much pride. (Any pride is too much- but sometimes I'm like- about to burst)
anyway- one of the main sources of pride that I struggle with- and this is really - "ironic" (?) I guess- is that - the closer I think I get to God- the more pride I get. Because I think I know more than others.. I think that I'm more special more anointed more holy- than others.
(really I'm not)- I'm hypotheticizing. :)
but- it made me think- as I was praying for someone else tonight- that sometimes people and especially Christians, unfortunately, easily get caught up in titles, or thier status in the church.
(I don't know whether my friend has this problem - but I prayed for them to not!) But a lot of times it happens to people.... I think because they have a need for recognition- and a need for love that maybe they didn't get or don't get from thier parents or family or selves or friends... I know that I didn't get all the love I needed- and I didn't recieve Christ until I was 21...so my ways of being haven't always been righteous and I've tried to find love in too many other ways than through Christ alone.
I guess the ultimate thing that pastors and church leaders or anyone praying for and desiring to work in the LORD's Kingdom need to know and remember is that it is not about them. It is all about the LORD and it is about the LORD's people. I mean, look at Jesus and His work--- His work was to do the will of His Father- God- and that meant humbling Himself to death on a cross. It's about love. It's about truth. It's about sacrifice. It's about fasting and praying and seeking God with all yourheart--- it's about serving the LORD. Knowing Him and His ways- Loving Him and keeping His commandments. Forgiving and loving- and standing up for whats Right in God's eyes-no matter what the cost.

Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul."--St. Augustine

2 be real

Sometimes, it's hard to be real with yourself.
I mean, look at us- we want to be holy, we want to be "good", we want to do the right thing- but half the time we can't control ourselves...
I'm reflecting.... I guess... these things I want I desire seem so far from me - sometimes.
But then if I can purify my heart and my thoughts and realize - that all the answers are already there- then everything is alright. And I have greater peace - within- greater than before.
The LORD does answer prayer- and He is a just and a merciful God.
There is no other God - there is none like Him.
Amen.

"think on these" quotes from A New Thing Ministries daily devotion...

No matter who you are it's the simple things in life that lead you to believe that you can achieve anything.

Nothing will ever be attempted if all possible objections must first be overcome.

The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential... these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence.

Not Alone....

"you are not alone...for I am here with you..."
the Words of God ring true~
He is here, for me and you...

When we can't find peace in the world or in others-
we can find everything we need in His Love~
For He is love-
And His love never fails...

He is always here..He will never forsake us, never leave us....
His love is better than life--His love will satisfy...even the most hungry heart.....
even the most broken heart....
His love will be a guide - A Light -
even in the darkest night....
He is there.

I LOVE GOD! Can I GET A WITNESS??!!

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I need love-
not some sentimental prison
I need God
Not the political church
I need fire
to melt this frozen sea inside me
I need love~

Sixpence none the richer

some sunday poems. love.

I feel the need to share some poems that I've written. Hope they speak to my readers. Godbless.


A Sinner's Prayer

Who is this you see? Is the LORD in you judging me?
Do you think I've done too much wrong-
That Jesus' blood can't cover me?
Are you looking at my sin or is it me you see within?
This is all I know to do to get my message through to you...
Look out-Look out here she comes
The girl who does what noone does-
She's a sinner- she's a whore-
She's a harlot- even more.
She's been around-walked up and down-
She's no good- don't want her in your neighborhood.
She's desperate- destitute and desolate-

Crucify me now- O LORD_it's the only thing left to do-
Ridicule me- with out within- I know its what my sin deserves-
I mocked my salvation-I loved my sin-
The pleasure was greater than God to me- see- look- look at my sin.
I am nothing-nothing now.

The sin of my youth-
the sin of my life
the sin of my history
and all of my strife.

My body-
A temple, destroyed.
My heart-
A hole, empty.

blink my eyes-longer than before-
I'm so close to dying but I know you want more-
You expect me to live in an abusive house-when I try to reach out- you let me fall again-
You let me sin and sin and sin-
then you let a man bring me back again -


I'm a woman-
I'm just a woman- that wants to run away---
I feel like you're not my friend- I feel like you let me down-
I'm embarrassed- I'm humiliated.
......They think I'm a bad person-they look at my sin-it's not me- they don't see my heart within.

i wrote this about a year ago...?


this one's a bit lighter!
Called:

The True Rhyme-Save a Raver

I used to be a raver-
but now I know my Savior
I thought I was hardcore
But now I know there's more
to life than what I see-
Because this life's a mystery

The King His Bride, the Church
Our hearts are knit together One in Him
The LORD our Blessed Saviour
Came to die for your and my sins..
So now accept Him faithfully-
Trust and believe
and be set free~
The truth- the truth will set you free-the truth- there's more to life than what you see-
the truth-give God all the Glory! Thr TRUTH!

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temptaion in the heart of man-
it will rule you if you think it can-
but take another look within-
and realize death is caused by sin-
God gives us all the power to know-
we can overcome evil, all we have to say is "NO!"
it's really hard -but if we struggle
maybe we will see- there's more there
than we'd like to admit-
more than we would like to admit.
"confess one to another" -don't be afraid
don't trust in man's judgement-
it's only God who can save-
do not fear - don't be afraid-
just testify the truth- you never know who could get saved!


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SOUL BLOOD

Soul blood-
come out and be

soul blood-
come out and see:

the truth-

be at peace-

let me see-

your face.

Soul blood-
washed, be clean.

Soul blood-
Pour out like rain..

Dripping on the floor of eternity-
Floating, singing-Knowing my need-

Soul blood, soul blood soul blood- bleed-
soul blood soul blood -soul of mine- free~

Soul blood-
Be redeemed-

Soul blood-
Abide in Me

Soul Blood-
Tabernacle of three-

Soul Blood- Be Holy.