It's Your Choice!

So much in life is what we make of it, and I am determined to make my life Great. Why settle for less when you can have the best?! Anytime people are inhibited or held back from living their dreams, it's usually because of their own undealt with shortcomings, attitude problems and unacknowledged sin. Therefore, I say to you and everyone reading, Your life is your own, that you Are responsible and that you are the only one who can choose on which path you will go!
We that have Jesus have the Power of God! And Our God Never Fails~!
Have a Blessed Day !

What's up :)

I wish I had something to write about here that was loaded with emotion and self-actualization and all that jazz but lately all I had been dealing with was frustration, so it feels good to not have to come on here to vent :) :) :)


But, nonetheless I feel like there's not much to say, but I will say this, I have been thinking real hard and for a very long time about creating some sort of poetry artwork for my somewhat large collection of poetry writing. I have had a few different ideas but I think the easiest is to create (paint) some frames and write them up and sell them. I had wanted to find someone (possibly) to illustrate or create colorful backgrounds for some of the poems, but I haven't found any willing body. But if you are interested in either getting a framed and hand written poem by me, or even if you might be interested in designing beautiful backgrounds or if you have any other ideas you would like to share with me, send me an email @ innocenceangel56@yahoo.com
Put "iangel poetry" in the subject, and I will write you back!

Other than that your prayers and positive thoughts are always loved and much appreciated by me!
Hope everyone has a Great Weekend, God is Love and Godbless!
Love, iA

# 2

So I want to say, that after writing my last post (tonight), I decided to read some of the Word and I opened my Bible to Hebrews the end of chapter 6, and it was really encouraging... to not lose faith or hope, and it reminded me that God IS always faithful and will keep the promises he made me.
In my life I have figured out that I tend to retain feelings and thoughts and so writing became an outlet for me to get free. SO, I don't like to post such negative things all the time (referring to the last post) but to be honest, life has it's ups and downs. God is in them all... I feel better now though. Hopeful... Because I know that my God is Faithful. And True.

Challenging Faith or Challenging Myself?

My life as been so perfectly imperfect, sometimes I ask if it will ever be ... what I hope or desire or expect or want it to be. Without trying to sound pathetic, I must admit, at least 50% of the time I think, I ponder my troubles that just never seem to leave me. I try to "forgive" the people who have hurt me, but they continue to do so, or I never find consolation with their resolve and I feel like I'm left hanging... with such lack... with no one to fill their place.
And then, I have tried, like so many people I have met at churches and things say, Jesus will fill that empty place.
I pray, I talk to Him... but... I still feel empty.

I feel like there is something eternally wrong with me, and no matter what I do or say, or try, it is never Right (yeah, with a capital R ).
I try to praise Him (and in my heart I do and I AM grateful and thankful), but sometimes it feels so fake... I mean, you can't DENY your pain when you praise Him... I guess that is what I am trying to find out, or ... accept. God is good.. but, my life may not always be. I have things, but oftentimes, my heart aches. My soul.... I feel misunderstood... I feel like no one even cares to Try to understand.
I feel alone.
Most times being alone doesn't bother me.... but... I guess certain situations that I expect or desire to be... more unified, at failure, make me feel, solitary.
So small in such a big world..
And I see so much of what other people, other happy people have... and I question why can't my life be so?
Why can't I have what every healthy whole normal person wants in life?
Why is my life vexed with this vexation?
Is it me, or is it God?
Am I wrong for doing what I can? I ask Him for help, for guidance...for answers...
I guess I am so blind? I hate my own lack of humility. But how can a person try to be humble?
Who am I, or who do I think I am? that I am not. Who I want to be......
God help me!

O, Heavenly City~

It is interesting how, if you think about words and where they originated from, you can gain a deeper knowledge of what they truly mean. You can also look at a word and, through prayer, gain a more spiritual knowledge about them too.

Take for instance, the word "lust". If you change the letters around, you can create the word "slut" out of it.
And take the word "hatred". Hat-red. It makes me think of someone being "hot-headed"... angry hateful and mean all the time.

Or take the word "love". In England they write of like "ov", and if you take they letters LOVE, it can be percieved like Love = Lord's Love ov everyone.

But I was watching a show a week ago, a 48 hours mystery about some scandal that happened in California. (Another one of those words....)
But the scandal happened in Los Angeles- The City of Angels.

The Holy Spirit quickened me and I saw Lost Angels.
People so often glorify celebrities and movie stars and musicians they see on tv and movies and on the radio, that they lose sight of God, and even thier own life sometimes.

thw World has lead so many people to believe that what is on tv is the truth, or the way things are supposed to be. But in most cases, it is not, and in most cases, the stories and songs are made up. and all the pretty girls have been made up with make-up, and the ones on the magazines have been made up and also photo-shop edited to appear beyond perfect physically. and we don't see any emotions except pleasure, joy and the portrayal of a lavish life.

So many americans believe what they see.
and so they are deceived.

The Bible speaks of faith as being the evidence of things NOT seen... things of God, not even dreamed or imaginged, but better than what we could ever even THINK to ask of or expect of Him.

So- I think that is why the Lord showed me the City in California as being like "Lost angels"
because they lead people into a world of tangible temporary gratifications... while leaving the cross unremembered.

And isn't it funny how all it took was a "t" to bring this revelation to my heart?

We need to stop looking to the world and imitating the world to try and fit in and be like it (the world), and start looking wothin, where God is, and letting Him be glorified in us, and let Him express Who He Is, in us, as we were created for His Purpose, and in His Image.
amen