-NV-

I have been thinking about envy for a little while.
Does it ever seem like when you reach a place in your life where you are happy or blessed and someone you know comes along and "seems" happy for you, but you can tell deep down inside that thier jealous, or hurting or feel like they wish they had what you have?
That is called envy.
I have dealt witht this before- when something happens in (my) life and people who I feel like I can trust turn around and (I think) are envious deep down. And where does it come from?
I believe it comes from a few reasons:
I think first of all some people don't realize what they have. They are always looking at what other people have, making comparisons, trying to make what they have seem better or worse than what someone else has because they are afraid of dealing with other people's possible jealousy.
Then I think people forget to appreciate what they have. Maybe they are spoiled and get everything they want. Or maybe they never got what they want and felt deprived- like they never had what others had.
But I think we as people should be ultimatley only need Jesus and the love of God to be fulfilled, full, whole.
THEN, the last thing, which I got from the LORD last night while I was praying about it, is, envy, NV.
N= No
V=Victory

NV = No Victory

People get envious when they see others walking in victory.
I don't want to digress into some long letter about why, but if they people who are envios really want to be happy and have a fulfilling life, then they (and sometimes WE) - need to turn away from the public eye and look at ourselves in the mirror and see what kinds of changes we can make to have a better life, and turn to God and ask Him to help us- let me tell you, without Him, we can do nothing!!! (Yet He loves us so much and it is His desire to lift us, help us, cleanse us, lead us through to victoryand glory!)

Living a life of Victory isn't something that just happens
It is Work. It is a PROCESS.
It takes T-I-M-E.
It takes godly virtues that we have to practice, like faith, patience, love, trust, truth; So on and so forth.
It also takes a willing heart. An obedient heart. A faithful heart.

Sometimes you have to be willing to be broken. You might have to be willing to lose. You might have to be willing to go where you've never gone before.
But God always mends what he breaks. He will make you victorious through His Son, and through the blood He shed on the cross for us. Jesus said that the enemy comes to teal kill and destroy- but that He (Jesus) cames that we might have life and have it more ABUNDANTLY.
He will be with you on the journey that He wants to take you on~ and it will be better than what you have ever hoped or believed for!
What an AWESOME GOD, we have! Praise Him and Give Him aLL the GLORY! He is worthy!
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Psalm 101

1 I will sing of your love and justice; to you, O LORD, I will sing praise.
2 I will be careful to lead a blameless life— when will you come to me? I will walk in my house with blameless heart.
3 I will set before my eyes no vile thing. The deeds of faithless men I hate; they will not cling to me.
4 Men of perverse heart shall be far from me; I will have nothing to do with evil.
5 Whoever slanders his neighbor in secret, him will I put to silence; whoever has haughty eyes and a proud heart, him will I not endure.
6 My eyes will be on the faithful in the land, that they may dwell with me; he whose walk is blameless will minister to me.
7 No one who practices deceit will dwell in my house; no one who speaks falsely will stand in my presence.
8 Every morning I will put to silence all the wicked in the land; I will cut off every evildoer from the city of the LORD.

Passionate This Love

~Passionate …
this Love I’ve found – The Desire that turned my world around-
The blood sweat and tears – of fighting all these years –
Has been the cost of my redemption-

But the Price He paid- in His Passionate Way-
Has given me a life Redeemed- with a Hope and a Future – and a New Song to Sing~
So, don’t hold back – Don’t cut me any slack-
I want to be Pure- Passionate and Sure-
And I’m not ashamed –Because I Know His Name-
It’s the Only one I Call On- Because He’s the Only One I can Fall On.
So I pray, and empty my heart of these distractions – And I ask the Lord, to Fill me with His Passion
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For Life, in Love, in Truth-
-From henceforth and Forever-
To Serve Him, and follow through-
Make connections in the Ressurection-
Love one another- Be good to your brother-
Do to them what you want done to you-
They are your reflections, Living Examples
And Christ Connections
-Righteously-
Be Right to me
Graciously
You smile at me
And LORD I know you look at me
~This heart you see—and ~you set me free~


To You

Devotion and a PrayerPoem

“It is the calling of great men, not so much to preach new truths, as to rescue from oblivion old truths it is our wisdom to remember and our weakness to forget”
- Siang Smith

Proverbs 29:25
The fear of man brings a snare; but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.

Proverbs 18:24
A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.
(Jesus is my BEST FRIEND!)
Psalm 34:14
Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace and pursue it.

Jesus Christ is the Prince of Peace
Isaiah 9:6

Isaiah 61
Jesus came so I would hear the Goodnews!
He has comforted and healed my broken heart!He has set me free from captivity- He has loosened me and let me out of prison!He has told me everything will be alright and that God sees everything, and that He Himself is LORD of ALL!
He has made my feet to dance and my lips love to rejoice in Him!
He has strengthened me in His Truth-
He is building me, raising me up and repairing my life, my self, my soul –
For His Glory and my Good!
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I do not have to suffer to be close to the LORD.
God wants good for me-
Even if people don’t understand that – I will continue to Believe Him!
James 3:18
And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.

“baby leave it all behind”
Dan haseltine, jars of clay

“If you weather love and lose your innocence, just remember- lesson one.”
(BOYS-‘lesson one-‘Jars of Clay)

When will you be happy?
When will you you have peace?
Where does your peace come from?
Are you thankful?
Are you happy?

“A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for” anonymous.

~

Peace and hope
Can you step outside yourself –
And look at yourself?
Do you see what you need?
Can you see what I see?
Do you watch me fall? Can you hear my call?
I’m falling – my heart’s falling inside –
As I wipe my own eyes-
This place I’ve longed to see –
I put my faith with my patience – in love –
Like making a new color to see –
Or writing a new song to sing –
-trust isn’t always about the other person-
Relationships are not always only about me – or who “I” love
There is a divine purpose behind it all –
There is a reason- that is His Way.
Pray .
God will reveal Himself to those who pray.
And ask for Him.
Amen.

'Xcuse me while I vent...

I got pulled over about three weeks ago for having a headlight out, but the officer also mentioned that when he dove by me I was not wearing my seat belt.
It was late, and I was in a neighborhood and hadn't yet gotten on or even near the main road yet. And when I passed the police car I did put on my seat belt, like, right then.

But about a block down the road I saw him turn around and he was right behind me and he turned on his lights and pulled me over.
I pulled into a gas station and he came up to my window with flashlight and everything.
I was also getting really sick, I had almost lost my voice (I actually went to the dr. two days later and had to get a powerful shot to kick the sickness, whatever it was).
And anyways, the police man was like, interrogating me.
I told him I felt like he was interrogating me, he was literally making me upset.
I told him in my defence of not having my seatbelt on that I was still in the neighborhood, and that I always wear my seatbelt, and that if and when I might ever not have one on and I do see a cop, I put it on right then and there. (these things are the TRUTH!)
He let me go for the headlight but gave me a $101 ticket for no seat belt-
And he was very... abrasive. I told him that there are criminals he should be trying to find, instead he was interrogating me for not wearing my seatbelt!

It made me think awhile after, actually when I had met Mario Mopar I talked to him about it or maybe thought about it and I thought this:
I always thought "being corrupt" meant like, if a cop who swears to be a good citizen and be a good patrol like, if a cop were to keep the drugs he confiscates or if he speeds or stuff like that, that that would be corrupt.
But now I think its corrupt for what I have seen.
Cops interrogating the (not innocent, maybe less innocent?) than the real reason a community needs police.
Ok, so theres drug dealers, drug addicts, murderers, theives out there. All these crimes are related. Yet, for some reason police seem to let them slide by, and instead ask a million questions to some girl who just wanted to go home.

Maybe I am still mad that I have to pay a ticket when I always do wear my seatbelt.
But I also think maybe people need to get real.
Deal with the things that need to be dealt with.
Ya think???